For a long time now, I have lived my life with my two legs in two worlds. There has been my real life, and there has been my online life. My african life and my global life. They move at different speeds.

My vision encompases tapping into the potential for grassroots change on an Africa-wide level, that connects with the rest of the world. People around me have visions of being able to afford mattresses, schooling, and clean housing for their children. Connecting these two worlds is what my soul stretches me to do. Mental gymnastics.

Uh oh, and the cost of shipping just went up again. here I am in Gulu unable to adjust anything on the website... but meanwhile LiA members are setting themselves up on facebook and razoo and saying "wow - look at this!" They are catching the hang of it, helping each other, understanding that it's in their best interest to learn. The break from Onet comes with an understanding that the relationships will continue elsewhere, and that's ok. In my world of duality it has prompted a change in the order of things. Some of them have already swam far beyond where I might ever reach in these new online worlds. Hooray for them. I am thrilled to cheer from the sidelines, obliging to click on the links i am sent. Meanwhile, the orders we can't afford to ship keep coming in. I must schedule some time to think about that.

Balance.

Instead, I think about the farm, and the balance that may or may not be achievable there. Opok Farms: an organically grown community. Sounds lovely, but the challenges to planting the 60+ acres that have now been cleared are not easy to work around. The workers are afraid of the elephants. Charcoal burners are decimating the trees. Norbert's truck is about to break down. This is life in Africa, where anything can happen, but where many things can't seem to happen at all. And when all is said and done - when the rest is over - this is the life I am choosing, in spite of it all.